Hello guys. Well, it has been absolutely ages since I have posted here. I’d like to start this post by apologizes for my prolonged absence. I should probably have said something, but I had decided to take some time out from the blog to (hopefully) get some perspective. Recently, I came across such an interesting article from the New York times: When blogging becomes a slog.
It made me realise that I cannot postpone this post any longer, and that it is time for me to share my true feelings here.
I haven’t felt happy with the blog, its content and my efforts for the longest time. I started my first blog five years ago, back in Cape-Town, as a way for me to flex my writing muscles and speak my crazy mind. It quickly turned into a design blog and developed into what it is today. Along the way I have stumbled, grown and developed. I have changed my career path, and my mind, more than once.
If I have to be honest, I have had the feeling that all is not right here on ‘of Beauty and Love’ for quite a while now. I am less interested in decor and am being pulled in other directions with my stationery store, my personal development courses and my growing interest in holistic healing and creative living. I thought I could juggle it all, my day job as a primary school teacher, writing 5 posts a week, freelancing as a stylist and writer, teaching all my courses, running my stationery store, attending craft markets, attending launches and events, trying to study further, being a friend, daughter and wife and still having time for myself. It is all just too much and the end result is a poor attempt at multitasking. It saddens me to say this, but I have ended up not doing anything nearly as well as I would have liked.
I have always tried to live and blog with integrity and honesty. I have tried to avoid sponsored content on the blog, and have strenuously vetted all PR inquiries. Yet, I find it hard to justify the amount of time I spend on creating content, for no remuneration, when other projects, more lucrative ones, are falling behind. I would never compromise on integrity. Why start now? I am inherently a creative person, and live (or try to live) a creatively fulfilled life. So why is it then that the blog just celebrates and shares other peoples creative successes and endeavors, and never any of my own? The truth is, that there simply is not enough time to produce anything of my own. So there is nothing to share. The blog is no longer a reflection of my real life and beliefs.It is a shadow attempt to keep up with a perceived expectation- on my part.
In light of all of this, I have decided to put my beloved blog on ice. As hard as it is to say, I feel like it no longer serves my life and my goals. It was an amazing journey and it was fabulous while it lasted, but I am moving on to new adventures and experiences. I might do a revamp later (content and all), but for now I have decided to step away from the keyboard and into life. This blog will now only feature course information and updates.
I love blogging and I have always been a great advocate for blogging and of the blogging community- which I think is an awesome, awesome place, full of super people. I have made such wonderful friends, and I would like to thank each of them for their support and love. You rock my world. This has made my decision increasingly difficult.
I have just realized that my new store requires my attention now, if it is to flouring into the creative haven that I wish for it to be.
I will still teach my creative recovery courses, The Artist’s Way and The Vein of Gold in the new year. I will post the details for these during October. I might even add a few more craft/ creative workshops as we go along.
I sincerely hope that you’ll all understand my decision.
Thank you again for all the support over these five crazy years.